The Not-self . Sour and Whining
Every Type has a Not-self theme. The thing you feel when you are off the mechanism, when you are not living your self. So, Generators feel frustration when they do not listen to their sacral. Manifestors get very angry if they do not act accordingly to their design. And Reflectors feel disappointment.
And all Projectors, we feel bitterness. It is being sour in and of life. And for the Mental Projector, that bitterness can really be in the way so they can't even hear themselves clearly anymore.
What it actually is
Bitterness is not a mood or a flavor. For us Projectors, and especially for the Mental Projector, it implodes in our body. It changes our frequency, how we move, speak and act.
And here is the cruel part. The whole gift of the Mental Projector is this genius mind and often the voice and expression. So the capacity to articulate unique mental truth so that other people can hear it and get inspired will be flavored with sourness and bitterness. Nobody wants to hear that even though it could be something very valuable.
“You know bitterness as it goes deeper and deeper into the system, it literally paints everything. And of course it brings that to the very tone.”
Where it comes from
Bitterness is what we feel when we ignore our design. When we initiate life instead of waiting and just being the observer. When we act and decide in the now instead of taking our time, "soundboarding" our way to correctness. When we just say yes to keep the peace and so on.
Almost every spontaneous reaction puts us in dange, as it puts us in someone else’s energy field, not caring what we take in and what it will do to us. That's why we end up doing things that were never ours to do.
“Every time that you’re spontaneous in the way in which you react to anything, in all likelihood, you’re simply being enslaved.”
The deeper layer
“What you have more than anything else as a byproduct of the bitterness that arises in a projector’s life is you have deeper and deeper mental sadness, melancholy, as long as you cannot make a contribution...”
The way out
The way out is not to chase or push or act or whatever the mind comes up with. It will tell you that you should do this to get seen or you could do that to get invited...
But the way out is to live your design correctly - simple as that. So that means to master your OWN system, your design, your mechanism, your unique way of navigating this reality. That also means you need to clear with which people do you live and eat and go out, as they at least should recognize you. And then you wait for the invitation. You sleep in our own aura and you don't jump right away when something comes your way.
Most importantly is that Recognition is your medicine. And recognition only happens when we first recognize ourselves and then live our design radically, so that we are seen for what we are.
“It is not an easy thing to be a Mental Projector.”
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